My little sister, Emily, found out she was pregnant a couple of months after we did. We were so excited to go through this together. Then she found out she was having twins and we realized our situations would be a little different. She is having girls and we are having a boy. But now Emily is going to the doctor at least twice a week two hours away and there is always a fear that she is going to lose the girls. It has taken an unspoken toll on our family. I am 2 years older than Emily and so much of me feels this strange need to protect her from pain. When she went through a tough breakup, I was ready to kill the guy. It took me forever to forgive him and move on. Now I am on the other side of the world and there is NOTHING I can do to fix this. There is nothing we can do to take away the fear and the pain that she feels every day. She is 20 weeks and has to make it to 30. So ten or 11 more weeks of drudging through the trenches and learning more about the depth of the Lord's grace and mercy. I know I have no choice but to watch and pray as she struggles, so that I will do. It is hard. I find myself torn between excitement of Wyatt coming and this melancholy lull as I constantly think of the twins situation. If the twins make it to 30 weeks they will be born around the same time as Wyatt. If they don't make it then Wyatt will be a constant reminder of their loss. Uggh! Very hard times right now. Please continue to pray for us, for our family, and especially for Emily and Mike.
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