Meeting in the Mornings

The conversation ran through my head over and over with the Lord as I sat for a few minutes this year cramming in the word and spending no more than 10 minutes in prayer throughout the day..."Lord, I know I need more time with you but there is NO WAY I can wake up before 6:30. I am with 3 wild little ones all day long and I am exhausted in the mornings. Lord, you made me and you did not make me a morning person. Lord, I just can't focus early in the mornings....The excuses went on and on...and then I went on a prayer retreat. To be honest I dreaded this retreat because I tend to feel that a whole bunch of women in one room praying can tend to be a bit dramatic and weird me out...but instead I was given hours with no children, with no distractions, with no interruptions...with the word of God and a list of questions to think on and let the Holy Spirit reveal deep sins buried in my heart.

..and then it hit me...real hard. I knew that the Lord had been calling me into a deeper time with him. I knew that I needed to wake up at 5:30 before anyone else in my house. I knew that I had been making excuses for years instead of stepping out in obedience in this simple area of my life. I DID NOT want to do it...but I knew that it was time to repent of my disobedience and turn from that. So I began this journey into early mornings with the Lord...

And it has been so beautiful! Just meeting with the Lord in the silence of my home when all are sleeping and peaceful. Being awake and in the word and prayer when my littles wake up so I can be happy to see them instead of angry that they are making me roll out of bed. Being able to begin the day with them focused and prayerful has been so amazing! Even more amazing is the fact that 5:30 has become so sweet that I am beginning to wake on my own without my alarm. I never believed this could possibly happen but I am so thankful for the gift of that time with the Lord...that time where He meets me in the quiet place. 

Dancing...

We have had Sara Grace for about 9 months now and it has been a wild ride! Today Levi took the boys to play tennis while sis and I stayed home. We cooked, we played with toys, and of course...we danced! As I was holding her in my arms spinning around, she started singing "Jesus" at the top of her lungs and laughing so hard she was crying...and time stood still. That moment where I realized that laughter, love, and Jesus all wrapped into a second would happen again and again and again in her life and mine. That moment where dancing, and cooking, and talking about nonsense were no longer a dream but a reality...that moment where I knew I was living the dream. It was so humbling to see the hand of the Lord in that moment reminding me that the days that go by where Sara Grace whines all day and I feel as if I could lose my mind...are worth it...that moment that reminds me to fall on my face and continue to plead with him to be the first thought in her mind, the first goal in her life, wait, not a goal...to be her whole life. the goals, the dreams and everything in between...may it all be Christ...and may her life be complete in and through Him every single day. So tonight my thoughts are full of dreams for her...dancing dreams, laughter dreams and dreams of her walk with Jesus...

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