Meeting in the Mornings

The conversation ran through my head over and over with the Lord as I sat for a few minutes this year cramming in the word and spending no more than 10 minutes in prayer throughout the day..."Lord, I know I need more time with you but there is NO WAY I can wake up before 6:30. I am with 3 wild little ones all day long and I am exhausted in the mornings. Lord, you made me and you did not make me a morning person. Lord, I just can't focus early in the mornings....The excuses went on and on...and then I went on a prayer retreat. To be honest I dreaded this retreat because I tend to feel that a whole bunch of women in one room praying can tend to be a bit dramatic and weird me out...but instead I was given hours with no children, with no distractions, with no interruptions...with the word of God and a list of questions to think on and let the Holy Spirit reveal deep sins buried in my heart.

..and then it hit me...real hard. I knew that the Lord had been calling me into a deeper time with him. I knew that I needed to wake up at 5:30 before anyone else in my house. I knew that I had been making excuses for years instead of stepping out in obedience in this simple area of my life. I DID NOT want to do it...but I knew that it was time to repent of my disobedience and turn from that. So I began this journey into early mornings with the Lord...

And it has been so beautiful! Just meeting with the Lord in the silence of my home when all are sleeping and peaceful. Being awake and in the word and prayer when my littles wake up so I can be happy to see them instead of angry that they are making me roll out of bed. Being able to begin the day with them focused and prayerful has been so amazing! Even more amazing is the fact that 5:30 has become so sweet that I am beginning to wake on my own without my alarm. I never believed this could possibly happen but I am so thankful for the gift of that time with the Lord...that time where He meets me in the quiet place.