Levi and I have had a very precious 10 days. Our old fellowship back in the states, Riverbend, came to spend 10 days with us so they can see what we do and join in on what our father is doing. How special that time was! We spent time in the word together every morning and spent every night playing spades. They loved on Wyatt and he loved all the attention! It was a painful goodbye and I had to once again seek the Lord about staying in a dry land while my closest friends and family are in the land flowing with milk and honey! I asked the Lord if it was our time to return and the answer was clear as I expected...no....for his ways are not my ways and He is faithful, sufficient, enough...
So while I miss America and my heart hurts at times, it is a good pain...a pain that reminds me that obedience is more valuable than sacrifice and that He is my provider, comforter, and the one who gives me more than I could ever ask or imagine....I feel that he has given me much more humility, love and patience than ever before. My heart is full most of the time, my pride is always brought to my attention and causes humility to increase. I recognize my sinfulness and this causes a repentant heart and a deeper passion for holiness. My inability to call a girlfriend and gripe when I am frustrated with my husband or life in general has caused me to spend more time in reflection and understanding. In response, I handle things so much differently when I would have typically gotten frustrated and angry.
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